What is your "one word"? One word for this year, one word for next year.
2011- Confused. I never knew what I was supposed to do. I had no idea if I should come or go, laugh or cry, stay or leave, fight or ignore, talk or listen. Though I knew relatively what I wanted my life to be like, the concept of making it happen was hard to put into action.
2012- Identity. I saw this word used by someone else and it made perfect sense to me. When I graduated undergrad in 2009, I knew exactly who I was, where I was going, and no one could challenge that. I radiated personality and confidence, and attracted likewise people in my life. Around May of 2010, I quit my teaching job that I hated, gave up my lease, gave up everything else in my life and decided to move to FL on a very impulsive decision. This story could take days to tell- but in the end it has not worked out, and I have lost a lot of my confidence & ambition. Being 1,000 miles away from a full support system when I needed it the most destroyed me. It's a big step for me, at the end of 2011 and now at the beginning of 2012, to recognize this, admit defeat (but learn the lessons from it) and now take the necessary steps to regain my life and most importantly ME. I need to realize that I'm still healthy, have a great family, friends that have stuck with me through the miles that separated us, and a master's degree I'm working toward. The concept of "hope", which is my other word, is what motivates me. Hopefully by this time next year I'll be more like the young woman I was in 2009 :)
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